Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Need A Blog Makeover???

I wanted to share with you a lady that did a blog makeover for one of my other blogs. I spent many hours trying to add special features without any luck. You can go to saving4aseason to see her artwork. She's an adoptive mom and does an amazing job of corresponding with you and making your blog all your own. I wish I had found her when I was trying to muddle through adding special things to this blog. Go HERE to check her out! Her prices are the most reasonable that I found and part of her blog makeover fee goes to a charity or orphan fund.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Kaz Needs Our Prayers

Anyone who has followed my blog knows that my "baby" sister and her family have been missionaries in Kazakhstan for the past 8 years. They received news yesterday that the Kazakhstan government has made a new law that will only allow foreigners who are there on business to stay in the country a total of 120 days a year. They will be coming back to the U.S. in June and their mission agency will no longer be able to have a permanent group of people in Kaz sharing Jesus. I don't believe that this affects the adoption community at all but it sure affects the people of Kazakhstan. Please be in prayer for these people that they will have leaders rise up that will continue to teach this generation of Kazakhstan children about Jesus.

Brent and Beth don't feel that God has called them off the foreign mission field so please be in prayer for them as he guides them to their next assignment.

Friday, February 19, 2010

6 Months

I never thought I would add any more posts but this past week our adoption journey has been on my mind alot. I have had many moments in the past months where I think of Galina and Tanya and wonder if they have had regrets about refusing our family. I hurt for them as I know that they walked away from a life full of love and support. My love for Galina still takes up a piece of my heart. I know that we would have been able to love and embrace Tanya as our own also.

I was listening to the radio yesterday and the announcer was talking about God adopting us into his family and I had an AHHA moment. Isn't our adoption experience a good representation of what happens with many of us with God? He loves us and works behind the scenes for years to bring us into his family. He invests his time, energy, love and resources into us. We finally come to a moment when we know he is wooing us and asking us to join his family. We have the same opportunity to join him. Are we going to let fear and what others have told us take away this amazing opportunity? Are we going to trust him and allow this life changing event?

I continue to have a dream that God has placed in my heart for orphans. I don't know what to do with it at this point. I am trying to be patient and know that God has used all of this to prepare our family for a bigger plan up ahead. I look forward to what he has in store for us. We are in a quiet place now listening and waiting.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

The End of Our Kazakhtan Adoption Journey

When we left Kazakhstan we left with questions in our minds and hearts whether there was a child/children that we were suppose to meet. We received information this past week about one specific child that we had met and others that our agency requested that we consider. After much thought and prayer we have made a final decision that our adoption journey to Kazakhstan is done. We still believe that it was a journey that God called us on. It didn't end as we had anticipated but we are better people for having stepped out and traveled along this road. The people we have met and experiences that we have had have been life changing. We will continue to support and pray for the children's lives in Kazakhstan that we are blessed to be a part of. We look forward to the day that God reveals to us the "whole" picture.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

One Month Ago

Our trip to Ust seems surreal or like a dream. One month ago today we arrived in Ust so full of hopes and dreams. We were finally going to see Galina again and meet Tanya. We expected "bumps" in the road but I don't think we ever believed that they would not want to come home with us. It has been an interesting 3 weeks since we arrived home. The first week we were both pretty numb. The second week many emotions started surfacing and have continued to surface. We have been blessed to have many people to talk to and to help us process our journey. The day after we arrived home our son Nichol returned from a summer job out west. He is our child that infuses energy into our home and he loved on us and did his job. God's timing?? The second week our son Gabe and his family came to visit from Orlando. Gabe could only stay 2 days because of work obligations but Christina and Cash stayed for a week which was much needed grandparent time. Christina allowed me to "takeover" Cash for the week. For all of you who know me babies are my thing! I can't think of anything that would help me heal better than cuddling with my grandson. God's time?? Lacey has been around since we arrived home from the airport. She is such a huge support and truly not only my daughter but best friend. She is an amazing young lady that also is grieving the loss of her sisters. We are still trying to figure out what we are suppose to do with all we have gained in the past 5 years with our adoption journey. There have been many blessings along the way. We have made wonderful friendships. We know in our head that what has happened was all part of God's plan and we are trying to embrace that knowledge in our hearts. It's been hard. It's been confusing. We've been discouraged. We have grown. We've learned so much. It's been soooo worth it!!

Monday, August 17, 2009

We've Arrived Home

After over 30 hours of travel we arrived home safe and sound. It was an incredible week that has stretch us and tested our faith beyond anything we could have imagined. We remain confidant in the knowledge that we have had an experience that is only a small part of a huge picture that we may never understand. Yes, we are hurting and praying for Galina and Tanya. We know that our lives will continue and be blessed but as we turn these two children over to our God we wonder what their lives will be like in the future. Mark has prayed this entire journey that if this journey that we were on wasn't going to bless our family then he wanted God to stop it. It has been stoppped with both of us knowing that it was God's plan. Our oldest son Gabe told me he thinks that maybe God allowed us to go and spend time with the girls so that I would be allowed closure. I know in my heart that it was necessary for me to see Galina and hear her declare that she didn't want to be a part of our family for me to believe the truth. We have been so blessed by so many of you who have walked with us and at times held us up. We have established life long friendships through our adoption journey. We had the opportunity to meet and hold our Kazakhstan granddaughter, Simbat, and spend time with her mother Madina between our flights home. It's time to put this journey behind us and move forward and hold fast to the knowledge that we have gained.

Friday, August 14, 2009

We Are Coming Home

We want to thank you all for your support and prayers. We did as many of you suggested today and what Mark and I also felt was something that we needed to do to make sure that we were fulfilling God's plan for our family. We talked to our in country coordinator and agreed to meet other children that were available for adoption. We met 4 children ages 4-7. We knew as soon as we met each child that they were not meant to be ours. We did meet a 7 year old boy on the playground that we both felt could be our son. We inquired about him and late this afternoon we were told that he has 3 siblings and it would be complicated to adopt him. We have prayed and prayed and prayed about our situation and we feel we have done everything that we could/should do in this journey. We are so blessed to have so many family and friends that have been so supportive both here (Ault's and Howell's) and back home. Our kids have been amazing!!! We have purchased our tickets home and will be arriving in Chicago late Sunday afternoon. We will be spending tomorrow with Madina(our exchange student daughter from 2001) and her new daughter in Almaty. It's time to close this chapter in our lives and move on to being Cash's Grandpa and Grandma!