Friday, February 19, 2010

6 Months

I never thought I would add any more posts but this past week our adoption journey has been on my mind alot. I have had many moments in the past months where I think of Galina and Tanya and wonder if they have had regrets about refusing our family. I hurt for them as I know that they walked away from a life full of love and support. My love for Galina still takes up a piece of my heart. I know that we would have been able to love and embrace Tanya as our own also.

I was listening to the radio yesterday and the announcer was talking about God adopting us into his family and I had an AHHA moment. Isn't our adoption experience a good representation of what happens with many of us with God? He loves us and works behind the scenes for years to bring us into his family. He invests his time, energy, love and resources into us. We finally come to a moment when we know he is wooing us and asking us to join his family. We have the same opportunity to join him. Are we going to let fear and what others have told us take away this amazing opportunity? Are we going to trust him and allow this life changing event?

I continue to have a dream that God has placed in my heart for orphans. I don't know what to do with it at this point. I am trying to be patient and know that God has used all of this to prepare our family for a bigger plan up ahead. I look forward to what he has in store for us. We are in a quiet place now listening and waiting.